in major need of reassurance. stressed and overwhelmed and soooo tempted to fall back into old habits:/ i know i can do this, but with zero support from family, and limited support from “friends”, it is so hard to stay on the right track:( blaaahhhh. one more night. i can stay strong for just one more night. we’ll take this day by day..
i miss you. i miss us. we’re the best of friends and that means everything to me. but i can’t help but think back to the way things used to be. maybe this time something will click? or maybe it’ll just crash and burn as always. maybe i don’t miss us, i just miss that feeling? but i do. i miss you. everything reminds me of you. i’ll be looking through old pictures on my phone or laptop, and 7 out of 10 of them are with/for/of you. or the teddy bear on my bed that you gave me on our first valentine’s day. you probably don’t even know that i still have it. i thought of you when i found our baseball tickets in my wallet. the cd’s in my dresser, from the summer we spent nearly 5,000 miles apart. i think of you when my dad makes your favorite food. when i put on some sweats that you always said were your favorite. sometimes a song will play on the radio, and a million little memories flood back. when i cleaned out my room, i found some of our old love letters, from probably ninth grade:p can you believe we’re seniors now? crazy how time flies, and how things change. i miss you. but i shouldn’t. because you’re still right beside me. but, it’s different. and i don’t know what to do anymore.