i build these walls. and i act strong all the time. i surround myself with people so i forget about everything. but the minute i’m finally alone, i break. i can’t fucking take this anymore. i am so alone. and broken. and worthless. i’m done acting like it’s okay, cause it’s not. it’s really hard and i can’t fucking do it.
it’s only christmas #1 with a small portion of my family, and my anxiety is ready unbearable.
i need space…
in major need of reassurance. stressed and overwhelmed and soooo tempted to fall back into old habits:/ i know i can do this, but with zero support from family, and limited support from “friends”, it is so hard to stay on the right track:( blaaahhhh. one more night. i can stay strong for just one more night. we’ll take this day by day..
if you wanna send me some love, i wouldn’t object… 3
it’s been a rough day. mehh. just finished homework, except for precalc. i cannot handle everything that is going on right now.
probably going to be one of those bath-untill-i’m-soggy and then cry-myself-to-sleep kind of nights. neeeeeeeddd some encouragement right now:/
please and thank you?:(
things that i am currently in desperate need of:
-motivation and/or good grades
-some medication for my brain.